Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Do I Dare Use THAT Word??

Today I was called a "survivor".  I am not a fan of this terminology but it did get me thinking. I began thinking about all the "things" that have happened to me in the past 15 years. Experiences I survived?? What is a survivor?? Do I dare use that word??  (apparently life got a little harder after 40...)

At the start of 1998 my 23 year marriage was struggling.
My dad passed away.  I was heartbroken.

First grandchild born - Dyson

My marriage of 25 years ended.  More heartbreak.
 
Change jobs to work in Salt Lake City
Second marriage
Second grandchild born - Colby

My 3 year 'hiccup' marriage ended.  Not so heartbreaking.
My mom's age is starting to take it's toll. 

Third grandchild born - Hank
Date Scott  (2 years)
Marry Scott
Fourth grandchild born - Max

ITP goes crazy
Move mom into a retirement residence
Mammo not good - first biopsy ever 

Relief!  Biopsy is negative
 
Had splenecomy for ITP issues
Scott is diagnosed with Melanoma
Scott has surgery - almost dies on the 'table'
Platelet count crashes to 'life threatening'
High doses of Prednisone (I am such a grump)
Austin passes away - heartbreaking
Mom is getting worse
Mom passes away - I am heartbroken, again

FINALLY get a good family picture
 
Given chemo drug Rituxen for ITP

Fifth grandchild born - Owen
Platelet count good!
Sixth grandchild born - Sam
Seventh grandchild born - Lennon
Platelet count staying up and excellent
Working out/taking care of myself - lose weight

Find lump in left breast
Second biopsy
Stupid Dumb Breast Cancer. Heartbroken once again
Three more biopsy's
Surgery
  
Family all together for one week
 
Chemo
All kinds of Side Effects
Lose Hair
Nails turn black -get yucky

End of Taxotere and Carboplatin
Entire family together for Christmas
Heart doing well on Herceptin

Bone Loss
Neuropathy
Hair growing
Alive
Happy
Love Life
Love Family
Love Friends

L U C K Y   L A D Y

"Survivor".  Maybe - but no more tougher than anyone else.  I look at it this way - 
every morning that I wake up is a day that my heartaches
or that darn ITP or that rotten cancer didn't beat me!
  I have another day to spend loving my husband, my children, grandchildren and friends.
  Another day to sweat, shiver, pull weeds, do the laundry, ride the 4 wheelers, 
build a snowman, laugh out loud or cry like a baby. 
 Another day to LIVE.

  Every person has tough experiences in their life.  
No one gets a break. 

We will all die someday. But until then

Each day we wake up
 We are SURVIVORS!


 It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
Just trying hard to mend the pieces
of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
  feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
but now I hold my head up high

Oh no not I
I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
and I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
hey, hey 
(Gloria Gaynor)
 

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